A path I wish to not tread upon

I wander aimlessly, treading along the path having no idea where to
go, its a beautiful evening complemented by the weather just right, and a river to flow...
Approaching the river I can see, a reflection of the world surrounding
it, one would say beautiful words would adorn this day. Wish I could
force some words to appreciate the beauty I behold, alas there is a
pain wrenching my heart and soul.
The silence may be comforting for few, but something wrenches my heart that transforms the silence into a deafening tone.
I see others holding hands as they walk by, is it
the loneliness that causes me to despair.

Sometimes words hurt this is true, and some actions causes unknown misery to you. On any other day this one would be etched in my memory for good, but this day would do me a favor if it would pass and not haunt me for good.
There are tears of happiness and tears of joy, and then there are tears that
leave your eyes never seeming to stop. Words may be comforting and
advice too, but believe me when I say company is granted for a lucky
few.

Sometimes I feel I should despise love forever, erase some
memories and some situations that scavenge my heart , leaving wounds
haunting forever. I was not made to be stubborn at heart nor to
despise , ignore , or let it go. Believe me I have tried but each
effort in vain than the other.

I wander lost in endless grief, searching and chasing peace that eludes at each pace. I pray and pray for a miracle to save me, an angel from heaven, anything , anyone to bring me peace.

It has been a while since I have been thrust into this path , seems like eternity since I have been here and an eternity I see before me with no way out.

You change yourself for someone you love, you dedicate your life, effort, time and your existence but you are entitled to no love neither company and are adviced to ask for none.

It is a harsh way to discover one can be used, if you read this
for the love of humanity, realize even a worst enemy deserves no such
feud. Love is blind and will remain immortal for all time, its blind
to drown you in love and still make you opt for living with memories
though they claw at your heart. You can see no wrong in that person
nor flaw, just wishful thinking and efforts to not lose your grip on
your progress so far.

Stars line the sky and the moon too, time and the world pass by leaving you insane without a clue.

If you have someone holding your hand know the value of that moment, if you have someone listening to your words know that your wishes have come true,
if you have someone who values your love be grateful because its true,
if someone considers you a person and not a form with no life you are
lucky, if some one expresses that life is empty without you, I beg you
please consider for a moment that the bond you have is true. When you
are with someone special treasure each moment you never know how long
it will last. Differences and negates will always be there but give it a thought if they are bigger than the love for each other.

Believe me that thoughts and memories of those moments will keep you alive when you are left in the blue. It's not pleasant loathing in misery, guilt, grief and doubt.

I wish everyone in the world to find and spend an eternity of infinite lifetimes with the one they love, and know that its a gift to cherish a gift not everyone can receive from the one above.